that wasn't doing anyone any good...especially me! Now, at least, maybe I will be able 2 make some money 4 Christmas. That's not even bringing up the fact that we have GOT 2 get the fuck out of my Mom's house eventually. Fuck...I didn't even want 2 come here. I suppose that as long as I am here I may as well be as happy about it as possible, right? I could have one of those mothers that just doesn't give a fuck about her kids (I am soooo freaking grateful that I don't!) and then where the fuck would I be? Probably in San Jose turning tricks. Still having a problem working retail? I didn't think so...2day is Tosha's birthday. The little bitch is 15 years old. Just what the planet needs...another 15 year old girl. Whatthefuckever...
I really wish I understood what the fuck wuz wrong with me. I'm pissed off all the time, I'm not eating right, I hardly ever sleep and now I can't get it up. By "it" I, of course, mean IT. Although I have never had a problem with IT B4 (not including any time I have spent cheating...IT never wants 2 work then.) I am scared. I'm not afraid that IT will never work again (that is preposterous...isn't it? GOD, please, let that be preposterous!), I just have this unsettling feeling that it's a much larger problem. I have been having trouble pissing 4 a couple of years and now this. Besides...wouldn't that just be perfect karma 4 my cheating ass? Something tells me Budha would smile over this bullshit...
On the other hand...a perscription 4 Cialis wouldn't upset me all that much...
What a pisser. 4 some fucking reason, I haven't been able 2 upload pics whenever I want 2. I must tell U this does not bode well 4 Blogger. I may just have 2 find someplace 2 host my blog that is a little more adaptable 2 what I'm trying 2 do here, goddamnit...
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